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Name: Michelle
Birthday: 12/3/1984
Gender: Female


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Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Be My Everything...

God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking
God in my sleeping

God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking

God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my watching
God in my waiting

God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing

 

BE MY EVERYTHING...

It's the cry of my heart that Jesus be my everything. So why is this so hard to live out on a day to day basis? If I am being honest, I KNOW that I can fully trust him, the issue I constantly encounter is that I am fallen and question His intentions for me. (Especially during times of pain and distress.) I have a hard time relinquishing control, though I know that when I do, there is a sweet freedom to embrace. It is a daily struggle that I face. It's during these times of exasperation that I dive right into the Scriptures. When I went to journal, I found this entry I wrote back on August 22,2007.

The more that I look at my life and all that I've been through the more I can see the faithfulness of God.  I've always known that He is faithful, but to see time after time, His mercy on me, the more in awe I become.  Every new experience that He brings me through continues to amaze me because I know that He is good yet I still sometimes question it as I am struggling with problems in my life, and EVERY time He shows Himself true to His Word. 

In Job 11:7-9 it reads, "Can you fathom the mysteries of God?  Can you probe the limits of the Almighty?  They are higher than the heavens--what can you do?  They are deeper than the depths of the grave--what can you know?  Their measure is longer than the earth and wider than the sea."

So, pretty much, I have no reason to ask God why He allows me or anyone to go through these obstacles in life, because no one can comprehend what He is doing through them.  We have brought nothing into this life, and we will take nothing out of this life, but what does matter is what we do with this life that He has given us...will I live my life for Him or will I live it for myself?

He has ALWAYS been faithful to me, so I can only hope that I will be faithful to Him in return.

I closed my journal and thanked Jesus for being a personal God. I then asked for His forgiveness for my lack of belief in what He promises. I just felt the need to share a personal tid bit of my spiritual walk (really a struggle that seems to resurface a bit too often in my life). He remains faithful when we are not!

 

 


Thursday, March 20, 2008

Better In Time

This song talks about being in love, but the message is applicable to life in general. All the problems that life hands you, everything gets better in time because God takes everything he aloows in our lives and uses it all for Him, so ultimately it does all get better, if not here then in Heaven in will; and it will all be worth it!

 

BETTER IN TIME

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going
Coming
Thought I heard a knock(Whose there, Noone?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now I have realised
That I really didn't knooOooOw

If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all I know is)
I'm be oooOook

(Chorus)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah (It'll All get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)

(Verse)

I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling

[ Better In Time lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it

If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All I know is)
I'm be ok

(Chorus)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too oooooh(It'll all get better in time)

(Bridge)

Since there's no more you and me (No more you and me)
This time I let you go so I can be free
And Live my life how it should be(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes I Will

(Chorus)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cos I deserve too yes I do(It'll all get better in time)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too yeaaaah Ooooh oooooh (It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
Going to smile cos I deserve too Ooooooh (It'll all get better....)


Sunday, March 09, 2008

Weary and Hurt

Why does life get this way. It goes from being great to absolutely awful in a matter of hours. I am so thankful for God's loving and reassuring ways,  just to know that he is there in the storms as well as in the sunshine. It is of great comfort to know that he is fully capable of providing all I need to fulfill his palns for me, even when I cannot go on in my own strength. Praise the Lord for times of pain. It allows me to see how truely wonderful our God is!


Survey

A 155 Question MySpace Survey...With Good Grammar!
~*The Basics*~
Your full name::Michelle Christina Alexander
--What does it mean?::Who is like God?
Your birthday::12/03/84
Height::5 foot 1
Eye colour::Boring brown
--Do you like it?::See above
Natural hair colour::Medium brown
--Do you like it?::It's ok
Gender::Female
Religion::I follow Jesus
--Have you ever changed religions?::Nope
--Would you consider it?::No way!
Race::Caucasian
Heritage::Scottish and German
--Do you like your heritage?::I guess
Where do you live?::Lancaster
Have you ever moved cities or countries?::Yes
Your job::Teacher
--Do you enjoy it?::Some days
~*Favourites*~
Movie::Liscense to Wed, Catch and release, The Notebook, How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days... ect...
TV show::Will and Grace, Greys Anatomy, Top Model, American Idol, One Tree Hill
TV character::Nathan Scott
Movie character::Brick on Anchorman
Book::???
Literary character::???
Author::???
Band::???
Song::Too many
Type of music::Jazz, country and Christian
Instrument::Piano, flute, drums
Cereal::Honey Bunches of Oats
Fast food place::EWw! No thanks.
Dessert::Too many
Country::I guess the USA
City::NYC or LA or Miami
Place to travel::???
Airline::???
Shampoo/conditioner::BioSilk
Lotion::???
Subject in school::English
Teacher::???
Province::???
State (if you're American)::California
Football team::???
Hockey team::???
Athlete::???
Sport to play::Volleyball
Sport to watch::Football and Volleyball
Fruit::Kiwi and strawberry
Vegetable::Carrots
Snack::Doritos
Meal::???
Restaurant::Macaroni Grill, Olive Garden
Grocery store::Oregon Dairy
~*Have You Ever*~
Gone on a blind date?::No sir
Flown in an airplane?::Yes
Thrown up on an airplane?::No
Peed in the shower?::That is gross , no!
Peed your pants after you hit double digits?::once again no
Enjoyed Shakespeare?::Yes I do
Been to the opera?::No
Been to the theatre?::Yes
Streaked?::No
Seen a streaker?::Yes
Been mooned?::No
Mooned someone?::No
Flipped someone off?::Umm, yeah
Been in a fist fight?::Nope
Been drunk?::Yes
Had alcohol poisoning?::No
Been walked in on while you're naked?::Yes
Slept in a snowbank?::No
Made a snow angel?::Yes
Lost any teeth?::When I was little
Been in the hospital?::Yes
Been in a major accident?::Yes
Burnt yourself?::Yes
Passed out?::Yes
Watched a soap opera you didn't understand?::No
Prank called 911?::No
Made fun of emos?::No
Acted like an emo, just to see what it's like?::No
Cheated on a test?::Yes
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?::Nope I don't play with peoples hearts
Lied to get out of trouble?::Yes
Started a fire?::Yes in the microwave
Roasted a marshmallow?::Yes
Set a marshmallow on fire?::Yes
--How many times?::???
Wanted to drop out of school?::At times
--Did you?::No
~*Randoms*~
Are you single or dating?::Single
If single...do you like anyone?::I am not sure how to answer that
--If so, who?::
--Why?::
--Do you have a chance with them?::
If taken...who?::
--How long?::
--Are you happy?::
Last 4 digits of your phone number::4859
Your house number::Umm, Not writing out
Why are you taking this survey?::Bored
What school do you go to?::Out of school thank God
--Do you like it?::
Your school colours?::They were Blue and White
Your school teams' name?::Blue streaks
Ever been on a sports team?::Yep
--If yes, what was the name of it?::Blue streaks
--Did you enjoy it?::Yes I did
What do you want to be when you grow up?::I am grown up
--Why?::
Any plans for the near future?::Not kill myself
What are your views on capital punishment?::I agree with it
--Nuclear weapons?::Umm I don't know
--Euthanasia?::NO!!!
--The Canadian government?::Umm, I don't know
--The American government?::LOL
--The European Union?::I don't know
--The UN?::I don't know
--Can you tell me who the Secretary-General of the UN is?::No
What was your favourite grade of elementary school?::3rd
--Why?::Best academic year in elementary
What are you wearing right now?::Khakis and a purple dress sirt
--Any particular reason why?::No
What was the last thing you ate?::Veg. Soup
If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?::???
How are you feeling today?::Let down, hurt, confused, tired and crappy
How many keys are on your keychain?::None
--What are they for?::
What does the room you're in look like?::it has furniture and walls and a carpet
--Do you like the room?::I guess
Do you own an iPod?::Yes
--If yes, what kind?::Nano
Do you wear glasses or contacts?::Yes
What's your view on laser eye surgery?::I want to get it done
--Would you ever consider it?::Yes
Weirdest thing about your parents::I don't know
What did you do this weekend?::Movies
--Was it enjoyable?::Not really
What's your greatest fear?::Being alone, Snakes
Your greatest strength?::My faith in Jesus
What country do you fear the most::???
Have you ever been in a third-world country?::No
--Would you ever want to live in one?::I don't know whatever God has for me is what I want
What song do you have stuck in your head right now?::No
Will poverty ever end?::Not on earth
--Why or why not?::Because this world is doomed for failure
Will we destroy our own planet?::I don't know
--How?:
Man--inherently good, or inherently evil?::Inherently evil...thank God for the cross
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Saturday, March 08, 2008

Just some random thoughts and stuff

Ok so I am up ridiculously late. My mind and heart still going about 140 MPH. Well, slight exaggeration. I just have many things going through my mind. One of them being: When you want to get to know someone, I mean their innermost feelings, thoughts, and desires; how do you proceed? For instance, when you really are desiring to know the heart of God, what are the things that you do in order to get to that point? The answer to that is that you can never fully fathom the ways of God, who is infinite. Finite trying to fully understand infinite is a waste of time. But in order to know the heart of God at all, you have to read his Word and be in prayer daily. A life of a true worshipper, means being drawn close to his heart consistently. But, what about when someone desire to get close like that to someone in their life? I know that hours on end of conversation and observation of the person is nessacary. I also think that knowing the heart of that individual is key in truely loving them. I for one believe that, unless you place Jesus as the center of your life, you can never truely know others hearts, because you are so focused on yourself. So, in the end, unless you love others with the love of Jesus, it is impossible to truely love them.  Sorry if I am rambling on... I just want to REALLY get to know someone, and UNDERSTAND them and see them like Jesus does. Anyway...



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